Monday, July 24, 2017
Today is "Annual MRI Day" for me. Because once you enter cancer world, you never get out.
Every year, as a cancer survivor (of course we're never really a cancer survivor until we die of something else! LOL) I have to have an MRI. I hate this test. Its long, its loud, and its uncomfortable. And worst of all, they meed to get an IV in me, which in my case can be torture before the actual test even begins.
Anyway, I need to do this every year, and this is the day.
But I think even worst than the test itself is the inevitable return to the unknown. Because we are forced to consider the "what ifs".
After eight years I really don't think about cancer all that much. Not like the early years where it was never far from my mind. But now, its only the doctor's visits, or the annual tests, that bring it to mind. And that comes along with the fears and concerns that always accompany the thought of cancer. Its such an insidious thing. And in this case, today is one of those days.
So I'll soon head over to the hospital where I'll undergo an hour of uncomfortable, unpleasant procedure, and then I'll relax a bit until I get the all clear signal from the doctor's office in a couple of days. Cancer world. Many of us live there. Those who don't have no idea...