This has been one of those lazy mornings what I haven't had much motivation to get myself moving. it was a non-walking morning, when I wasn't meeting my friend for our regular early walk, so when it was so dark and so rainy outside I simply pulled up the covers and stayed in bad a while longer than usual. Even now I'm having trouble making myself do anything as simple as empty the dishwasher. It must be the low pressure system - my favorite excuse for everything!
My life has changed so drastically in the past year its hard sometimes to get my mind around it. My husband and I had been planning on his retirement and I was very much looking forward to doing things with him on days like this. We could take on a new project around the house (there are plenty that need tackling!) or simply take a drive to the beach for lunch, watching the surf tossing in every direction and talking about life. Instead I'm facing a day alone, still getting things done around the house, but not with anyone to share conversation or contact with. I miss that. But I don't grieve over it anymore. I've learned not to grieve over something that didn't really exist.
I know I'll get myself going soon. Its still early - and the sun is supposed to come out mid-day, which is always a good motivator. I have a busy weekend planned so these empty days are rare and sometimes good for reflection and relaxation.
I think I'll simply sit back and enjoy it.