Last night was one of those sleepless nights I've had way too many of lately.
This time it was a combination of things that contributed to my restlessness. Of course my recent life-trauma has led to many of those nights as I toss and turn, thinking about my past, present and future and wondering what's to come for me. There are none of the usual distractions in 1:00 in the morning and although I can always find something else to occupy my mind with during the daylight hours, it doesn't happen quite so easily then. I have more questions in my life than answers right now and my brain just doesn't deal well with things being out of balance,. I'm too much of a detail person for that. I like to know where I'm going and what the next day will hold. I barely know what the next hour will hold these days. And with everything in my life up to this point suddenly thrown into question, well its certainly fodder for a restless mind. Hence...troubled sleep.
Well I'm thinking with some good pain killers tonight should be another story all together and perhaps I'll easily make up for my lack of shut eye. I'm feeling it right now, but soon enough it will come. And that's life in a nutshell, isn't it? Eventually,
we all sleep....